AMOUR

Still depressed.  By keeping depression off my mind, I read the horoscope daily.  A superstitious person who believes what my horoscope says.  From the minute I was unemployed lots of uncontrollable life reality life bloomed.  Starting with my two maternal aunts who was diagnosed with  cancers and my unbearable over smart uncle who is living through bi-polar.  What's going on?  Why are all my maternal aunts going through a tremendous disaster?

Life stinks.  The day when  I failed the job interviewed my  friend set up, I walked over to Downtown Hospital , visited my maternal aunt.  Instantly I cried at that moment.  I couldn't bear watching her crying for help, reached out her hand so I can hold on to em' , gave her a secured net, make sure that I didn't leave her alone. Having to be in her shoes,  I chicken out.  Stared at each tube that inserted  into her body, and how the machine operated to cleansed  her blood while sodium chloride seeped through her blood  so it can provide a full stomach and hydrated.  It hurts  me to even continued to watch.  The moment she held my hands, she smiled but at that moment, my mind wasn't clear because all I was thinking was  must  to never  give up on browsing and applying to jobs.  My aunt's hand squeezed tight and pulled me back to reality and then I sat by her bed and shared many wonderful updates stories with her and even made her laughed  out of joy.  

姨妈 : 祝你早康服.  我希望请你喝茶.  For sure ... I will continue to pray for you.

细姨妈:祝你也早康服.  She has breast cancer.  Don't work too hard.

姨姨: 祝你日日开心 . 别容姨丈 病影响你的心情. Always remember that his illness is hard to bear with, but try to breath in difficult situations.

All the women in the maternal family suffers including myself.  I never had walk on an easy road, it's always tough.  I work extra hard to become  successful.

Once again , I am repeating my New Years Revolutions.  I always believed 神 has planned out our path; things are made the way they are meant to be.

I won't give up on finding a smaller company that gives me the same employee respect and allows me to grow and learn.  I am not sure where this site will be but I am pretty sure it's somewhere out there waiting for me.
I really want a supervisor giving me a chance to train me in something that I have never learn .

The job market is quite tough but I will continue to fight this war until I land on my safety.  I will continue to pray until I nail on a good paying job with benefits and allows me to grow and learn sometime new each day.  

I will also pray for my friends and family for the best.

Adore to all you guys.